Reflections of a Meandering Maniacal Thought Ipod Playlist

So .. am in bed, with Creep from Radiohead (the Acoustic version) playing in the background, a day just gone and so much to do. Yet the inertia. I like to think I am doing some sort of arm chair thought experiment - but all i seem to be doing after 20 minutes of sitting here is drifting in and out of thought. One thought comes and almost before it arrives, it seems like it's about to be taken hostage by another entirely unrelated thread of random bearing on the contents of life.

I reflect - reflect on my identity, personality, aspiration and more ... today i wonder about what i can draw from each of these to achieve that unique idea that i want to explore further. What is the bearing of what i do today to what i will end up doing tomorrow. It's like a twinkle on a water surface - a second so beautiful, gone in a second yet infinitum en memory.

And there's Knack with Myyyy Sharona! Secretly the one i love is Killing me Softly ... hehe - miss the quotes and what can be - oh the possibilities. Meander ... meander ... forests of lushness, green and beckoning - full of promise and yet - what's the point of sitting at the sides and dipping your toes in sweet streams of enticement if you're not going to commit, eh! That's the feeling I get when I look at what I do - why can't that commitment be absolute. Now I wonder now I don't and there's the thought for the sake of having one - what the heck is wrong with that I wonder .. and yet I dont really.

As observed, I AM slow today - was it yesterday? Maybe. Age? Maybe - hehe - i have old thoughts now ;). I realised i miss dancing and just the general mucking about in fun and frolic. It feels so free. So thought free yet provoking. Remember the times when i could have a dance about without any music. For that matter a sing about without music - without even sound sometimes.

Maybe music is the answer. Not 42. The world, the universe, everything - including Optimus Prime ;)!

There's a world where i can go and tell my secrets to - in my room ;)! True - reflective - cheesy and soo right! I wonder if illusion will ever change into something real. Don't get me wrong - i am not beaten - far from it. I wonder where that elusive idea is though - tantalising and far from grasp!

Now this post is ever more random - and I cant stop - i should - i cant - should cant s c s c !! Bills Bills Bills - ipod song change ;)! I AM Destiny's child :-D!