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Does pain or suffering really make you stronger? If someone close to you goes through something that is in your mind associated with your darkest thoughts, does it really make you better? Does everything that doesn't kill you, chisel the muscle of mind and heart and take you to a higher plane of consciousness?
It may highlight the moral fibre of the person going through said stuff but does it do the same for you. Is it strength to wish everything away? Is it strength to bury your head in the sand and pretend that it didn't happen or wake up everyday hoping it would have gone away?
Does the incessant searching ever stop? Do you ever stop looking for the latest and greatest out there or blaming yourself for what you could have done and didn't. Do you curse time or fate or God or is there something else out there that's waiting to hang its head in shame should you just say the word. Do you feel the urge to shout out loud at the injustice of it all - why me, why no one else? Or maybe sometimes you recognise that twinge of self pity that keeps harping on about how you should be the centre of everyone's thoughts and universe and maybe no one cares. The world has to move on but you want to hold on.
Yes, I think all of the above is true. I don't think, personally, that there is any more strength or less. Indeed it points out to you what your weaknesses are and what you care about so much. It takes you outside the narrow sphere of self obsession and the small world you've started to inhabit. It gives you perspective - cliched but important. It serves as a reminder - of things that are more important than you. Shows you how temporary everything is and how important it is to love in the now.
For now I guess all of us can do with some more strength. Getting through this will need all we've got and then some more :).